le chauve-souris

is it halloween yet? i want leaves. pimkins. candles. sweets. i want to be a lumberjack. i want a beard. i need patienc and gratitude. geez. too many "i"s and "want"s.

gargouille

last night i came to a realization that my life is entirely incredible. i was all snugg in my bed reading book of a thousand days. goodness. i'm just really happy with everything. all the time. 24/7. i suppose i could say i love my life. i'm trying to embrace still living at home. as much as i want to get out. i am trying to enjoy the luxury of being under the captain and shmee's roof. anyways, i went swing dancing last thursday at the pasadena masonic lodge. it was absolutely magical. hopefully i can do it again tonight. oh man. you know who i keep thinking of? rothbart from the swan princess. i don't know why. mmm. he's got some serious issues. au' voir. (did i spell that right?)

heaven's help

clearly school and harp has taken over my life. i'm swamped half the time, and daydreaming the other. when i auditioned for an inbetween instumental solo last week, my heart was in my throat. i was an adrenaline mess. now that i got the spot and perform it tomorrow, i feel quite the opposite i just shrugg my shoulders about it. what the? smokes. my mind works odd.